When you feel unwanted, know God wants everything to do with you!

I know it has been awhile since i've last blogged, and i can chalk it up to busyness, lazyness, or just lack of knowing what to say...but i'm back. Currently i've been struggling through feeling wanted. I know that may sound weird or crazy, but let me explain. I come from a family of unsaved people, and the boyfriend who is now an ex, was the one of the few encouraging people and best friends i had in this world. Having a best friend like that and then losing them is one of the hardest things i've ever had to go through, but the Lord is good, and i've met and have gotten close to a lot of wonderful young women at my churches that I attend.
What happens if the ex/old best friend starts to date again? It gives off a mixture of emotions. Even though I am over the fact that we aren't meant to be together, and am okay with it and moving on....the whole not really having a friendship anymore kills me. I know I need to be patient and cling to the Lord, and I am doing the best I can! Then you go through the comparison stage for a little while, and feeling just not good enough. For me personally, my ex was one of the few people that ever told me how beautiful and smart I am, and now I have to work extra hard to hear the Lord's voice whispering that to me instead of hearing some earthly man say it. I think the way I was raised, how I was talked to, and even now, not really feeling a part of the family...it just leaves me feeling unwanted. The ex is dating again, my family is going on summer vacation without me, all my friends are starting to date/get married....just makes me feel unwanted or alone.
The best and worst part about this is...this is something I prayed for. I prayed for God to draw me closer to him, to let me cling to him, and that is exactly what he is doing. Though it hurts (He never promised it wouldn't), I know there is a reason, there always is. He is the one I can cling to and feel safe. God is the one that I can always talk to and listen to, and know that everything is going to be okay. I may be weak, but He is strong...and because He is strong, and I am resting in him, I am strong. 
But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong.  2 Corinthians 12:9-10

I am strong. I am wanted. I am NEVER alone. God is the same yesterday, today, and forever. He will ALWAYS be there to strengthen, to heal, and to love.  He wants me and each and everyone of you...in fact he desires it! Isn't that so amazingly wonderful? God doesn't just want you, He DESIRES you. Here's to looking up and seeing what we're missing. May our hearts and minds be ever focused and filled up with Him!

NeverTiredtobeDesired,
xoxo Andee

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  1. LauraApril 3, 2012 at 4:03 PM

    I wish an apology from me could make up for the insensitivity that you've come up against. I wish I could smack some sense into the people I know who have made you feel alone! But I think truly that ALOT of people feel alone. From the other side of something it may look like being married or being a mom would fill that space. But you can be surrounded by people, people who depend on you for living and still feel alone or unwanted. I have found that it is both perspective...and honestly it's life with a fallen world. We expect things, we expect people to be a certain way for us, to fill that space with doing just what we think they will..but they don't! I am learning this myself even though I have been married for 6 years and have two babies! The only space filler is God. Something I have to learn too!!

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  2. Vaccinius ™April 10, 2012 at 10:56 AM

    COMFORT

    Jesus is a well. As wife
    feel the water giving life,
    life eternal. Feel the pain,
    here today and gone tomorrow,
    healed by super-human sorrow,
    to your growth will be a gain!

    :-)

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  3. Vaccinius ™April 13, 2012 at 4:56 PM

    I perfected the poem. Thank you for the inspiration! :-)

    COMFORT

    Jesus is a well. As wife
    feel the water giving life,
    life eternal. Feel the pain,
    feel the nature of the earth,
    feel the need to be of worth,
    here today and gone tomorrow,
    being healed by Jesus' sorrow!
    Christ! No feedback such a gain!
    If you are left out and scorn
    feel the joy of nature born.

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