New Year's Resolutions

It's January of a new year. What does that mean? It means that New Year's resolutions are still in tact (hopefully) and with this post, I will complete one of mine. One of my New Year's resolutions, (and by the end of the post you will know them all) is to be more open, writing a new post every two weeks. Why? Simply because I can, and I actually want to. Am I or is my life that interesting? Well, we will find out! 
My other New Year's resolutions are as follows: be more bold, and more bold for the Lord. Always love on people, and do so with truth and grace, continue to grow deeper in the word and in my relationship with the Lord, and spread the Gospel as much as I can to whoever I can. This year has been crazy, but what I've been learning lately, is to pray big things, because the Lord does big things. So I have been down on my knees praying hard for things, but what happens when those big things you wanted, aren't answered in the way you want them to be? You suck it up, because the Lord knows what's best for you above all else. If He is not giving you the thing you wanted, it means He has something way better in store for you! 
I was praying about interning at Young Life camps in NY, NC, and VA. Young Life is a  youth ministry I am passionate about that targets high school kids all over the nation! This past summer, I did Summer Staff, which is an unpaid monthly program where you go and serve at a camp (if you are chosen). That month, changed my life. From the way I lead, the way I love on others, and the friends I made. When I tell you it was the best month of my life, I am not kidding. I made an unbreakable bond with the greatest people, I served the Lord, and got to watch/pray kids enter into the kingdom. It was nothing short of amazing. When I got home and realized I loved and was blown away by four weeks, I figured why not apply to intern and do that for four months?! So the prayer process began, follow by filling out the applications, getting recommendations, and more praying and waiting. Everyone I talked to encouraged me, telling me I would get in. That was followed by rejections. My first one was the hardest, and the unthinkable. The woman I served under for my four weeks, rejected me, without any reason why, or giving me ways to better grow. Just flat out REJECTED. What followed that surprised me, to say the least. Tears? No. Anger? No. I was actually filled with a feeling of peace and joy. I wanted this so bad, and yet I was at peace, and even joyous about getting rejected? Yeah, I know y'all are thinking I must be crazy, and y'all are right. I'm crazy for the Lord. He came to me, overwhelming me with those feelings saying, "I have something better in store for you, I know you wanted this, but just remember, I know what's best, and I love you." So as I sit here and try to wait patiently from two other camps, I was assured over and over, if not this, something better. This is what I have to leave you with ladies and gentlemen: The best is yet to come, so keep your eyes and hearts open, and try to see all the blessings that surround you!

LovingHisWay&KeepingTheFaith,
xo Andee

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